I went to the mall today, something I rarely do these days, but I had a coupon and those who know me understand what that means for me. I went to pick up some shirts for my husband, but also wandered into the girl's section and decided to buy my daughter some jeggings. I don't like to buy clothes for her, because I remember when my mom bought mine and they were always wrong - just wrong (but mostly they were home made and how could I ask to return those?).
So I picked up a pair and held them up - looked good to me, and she's pretty slim so I thought they looked about right. When I got home and she held them up, WOW - way too small! What happened to my little girl, size 10? She looked at me like I was crazy. "Mom, I'm a size twelve, not a ten!" What? I bought a size ten? Yes, I did, and without even thinking about it. I still see her as being ten (truth told I still see her as abut seven) and while her physical growth has been gradual, it all caught up with me today. I think I need to pay more attention to the details.
Kindling
Tween-Year-Olds is a place to come when you think you are alone in the battle of raising a Tween.
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Friday, February 27, 2015
In Constant Motion
My daughter is in constant motion. With either her body or
her thoughts, she is a whirlwind from the minute she (fully) wakes up each
morning. This past year I have looked forward to bedtime more than when she was
a toddler, if simply to have a breather and quiet time. Don’t misunderstand – I
love every minute with her, and I sometimes look at her with awe, fully
understanding that she has the world in the palm of her hand. I, like other
mothers, want her to have every opportunity in life and for things to go well
for her. But each day I breathe with relief that nothing has yet to dent her
armor.
She is nearly finished with her first year in middle school.
I dreaded the first day, knowing from personal experience how things can be
peachy keen one day and the next your two best friends have decided to freeze
you out without warning or good reason. Humiliation, fear, depression, all of
these feelings are inevitable in the world of a tween. I just don’t want them
to enter her world – not yet.
I have been building her up for these issues, since she was
in the second grade. That’s about the time things became clear to her that
others (not only kids) are not always honest, kind, or fair. While trying to help her
keep the faith in the human race, I have had endless talks with her about how
to deal with it. Showing her with my own actions and behavior, I dealt with my
own inter-personal issues while volunteering at her school, heading up the PTO,
as an employee, as a wife. I didn’t just rely on my own gut, although that seems
to be the best guide of all. I read books, like Odd Girl Out, by Rachel
Simmons, for support. I share with my daughter important parts of my life, and
insight to being a woman. I guide her, slowly, through the boy-girl
relationships of middle school. I support her intelligence, and although she is
a beauty, I don’t put much emphasis on that. She is confident and has a strong
sense of who she is, but she also knows that she fits in when it comes to
looks. It’s a sad truth, and I myself was not more than plain, but I’m glad
that she had the inner beauty and outer beauty as well.
We have bonded over one of the least likely things – Doctor
Who. She is obsessed with all things Doctor, and has immersed herself in the
whole thing. I am not as interested, but I listen when she talks about
different situations the Doctor gets into. I help feed her craving, and
celebrate it with her. Her upcoming 12th birthday theme: Doctor
Who. This science fiction tv show has
helped us keep a connection even though she is clearly growing away from me. Because
I know that someday, far sooner than I am comfortable with, she will turn to
others for companionship. But we will always have The Doctor.
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